I've sort of got this going partly for personal reasons, and partly because I'm sure it's something that's touched a number of us here and it would be good to 'share the love' so to speak.
I've been feeling like crap for ages. It probably started about 2 months ago, and has progressively gotten worse. It started out as being generally 'down in the dumps', and has gradually gotten to the point of often being upset and almost going to tears for no reason, not being motivated to do anything a lot of the time, not feeling good about myself - thinking I'm a failure sometimes, having problems sleeping at night and waking up a number of times in the night, and various other things. It's generally worst when I wake up, but I've sometimes had it last all day.
I've been talking to a few close friends about it. One of them suggested I see a doctor, which I did yesterdy. I was very nervous about going, and almost chickened out, but I realised I had to do it for myself and for my friends who were 'putting up' with what I was going through. I'm very glad I went.
The doctor thinks it's depression with a bit of aniety thrown into the mix. He's put me on low strength anti-deprssants, at least as a temporary measure, and wants me to get blood tests to see if there's anything else medically that could be causing it. He's also goin to review me in a few weeks to see if this is working or not. He may also refer me onto a psych.
I feel a lot better already for doing this. It's going to be expensive over the next couple of weeks/months, but I know in the end it's going to be worth it. I can now see a way forward and have a lot more hope than I did even the day before.
I would encourage anybody going through anything similar to seek help. I know it's hard to admit to yourself that there is a problem - been there, done that. But I have found out that if you do admit it, and dod seek help, people are generally supportive. I've had some really great support from my friends over the last couple of weeks, they've been really understanding. And if you make the decision to seek help, you'll hopefully end up feeling a whole lot better. So if you think you might be going through this, please do seek help.
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to_light Someone who posts a lot
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*hugs* That was really brave and took a lot of courage, i hope things do get better for you. I know what it feels like, i've been like that for the past year, i kind of have this whole up and down motion, but im too much of a chicken to go to a doctor...one of my friends tried very hard last year to get me to go to the school counselor..but i always managed to have an excuse for not being able to go. I know should but i just can't.
Again, congratulations and i hope you feel better *hugs*
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profaine Loudmouthed User
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I went through it. And I got out of it. I saw a psychologist. That was very helpful. Sometimes you need someone to just listen and trust. Friends, no matter how good, can be good for this but in the end it really is easier when you have someone to talk to you're not associating with on an almost daily basis.
Also remember a big part of going down this road is the way you think. It's ok to feel down in the dumps. But when you start letting one thing spoil other things. It's like fighting a war. If you get defeated in one section. And you let your defeat effect the other sections then you're not gonna win. I hope that make some sort of sense. It makes sense in my head. That was one thing that made a change to how I was living. Also I worked out other things that were effecting me at the time. I was doing very badly in school. And for a long time I had refused tutoring. I decided that I would get help. It has made a great deal of difference.
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wojycheck Someone who really needs to get a life coz they post so much
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I often just bottle things up, i know its bad but thats just me, when things become increasingly bad or when i tend to focus on these bad feelings i just sorta close up because i am to shy or nervous to talk to anyone for help, i usually just wait and hope someone asks then i usually get what ever is on my chest off, but not in a volcanic way mroe emotional
Last time it happened was on retreat, i guess things jsut got to me, emotionally drained with all the drama within my group of friends. i just started avoiding them then one of them asked me if anything was wrong and i just burst into tears, i guess had i gone and spoken to someone the result might have been less dramatic, its good to have someone to talk to.
Hope you get better doggywomble, you always have us to talk to, most of us act immature most of the time but all of us have something helpful to give
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to_light Someone who posts a lot
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I tend to bottle every thing up as well. and about half way through last term i had a free and i just exploded, i could not stop crying and my friends had no idea of what to do so one of them stuck a book under my nose and they all gave me some well needed space.
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profaine Loudmouthed User
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i suffered from depression for years. im clinically depressed (i have a chemical imballence in my brain). even though im on meds, i still need to work on my emotions and keep myself happy or i can get suicidal really quick. but you know what helped me beat depression? finding Christ. the love of the Lord saved me! wooo!
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